two days left

It's officially Sunday today. That means I have two days left before I leave for eleven months! I have never had more emotions running through my head at the same time as I do now.

Excitement-I can hardly eat. I can't sleep, I break out in random giggles and songs. I'm constantly hyper, and all I can think about is Japan.

Apprehension-My stomach is clenched and seems like it can't contain the butterflies that threaten to explode out of it. I lie awake for hours running over checklists, worst-case-scenarios, etc. And sometimes I get random bouts of Acid Reflux.

Sadness-It seems like everything I look at will be for the last time. Last meals, last car rides listening to Bright Eyes at full volume, last Wal-mart runs, last adventures, last HUGS. I just have to remind myself that I'm coming back. The year will fly and soon I'll be lonely for Japan! I'm going to grow as a person, learn a language, and meet people I will love.

Exhilaration-This is the most pronounced feeling. It goes along with excitement, but to a much much higher extent. I get adrenaline rushes that last for the longest times, I feel like I'm rising to meet this challenge head on and I'm going to conquer it!

Overwhelmed-edness?-I have only two days left, and still I have to buy gifts, pack, set up the webcams, get some last-minute shopping in, say goodbye to more people, mentally prepare myself, clean my room, and trim Lokie's toenails *(which is no small task).

Gratitude-If I hadn't prayed for this since September, it never would have happened. And I owe so much to the Rotary clubs that have put countless dollars and hours into this for me.

How can one person feel all that at the same time???
Oh yeah and I got a haircut. :)